When the quality of life has a “Everything” or “Nothing” Feel

I didn’t make this world, I just live in it. It “appears” that I have a lot of control over my life; as much as I’d like to believe that, I don’t.
I mean I can chose to get up, eat, work and come home and watch whatever I want to watch on tv. But as far as controlling if the world is consumed with destruction, Someone else has that control. And, they therefore control our fates. Childhood innocence is a blessing. And, If it were not for the kids, I’d probably checked out mentally, physically, spiritually a long time ago when I realized humans are their own destruction; using religion and all other sorts of reasons to hate and kill one another.

I’ve decided, rather than stand on the front lines and fight against a multitude of people, I’d rather work behind the scene to try influence life in a positive direction.